Happy Halloween

Halloween has creeped upon us all once again. Every year it seems to come quicker and quicker. We aren't doing anything fun or exciting this year, Corey has to work tomorrow so we've decided to stay home, pass out candy and watch movies. Zoey will be dressed as a pirate, lady bug, princess, or vampire, maybe all 4 if she feels like it. There are many parties we were invited to but we decided to pass this year.

I can't wait to have a child of my own to dress up and take trick-or-treating. It's not easy seeing all the cute costumes and hearing everyone talk about what their children are going to be. I know we've only been letting nauture take its course for 2 months now but I can't help and hope that we get some good news soon. We decided to try out ovulation tests, so when the time was right I tested and ... nothing. Corey went out of town so I didn't continue to test because it didn't matter anyways. Hopefully our schedules will work out next month so I can test again. If we do test again and again get nothing I will start my search for a new Dr.

I never thought that I would be in this situation.

Happy Hump Day

A little updating

My dad's surgery went well, he will have another one on a few weeks for the arteries around his heart and in his legs. He has an appointment with the vascular surgeon later this week.

Friday night we went to Corey's parents house to have dinner and hang out, they were watching the girls over night so we did a lot of playing. Corey's dad had a free round-trip plane ticket he had forgotten about, all travel had to be done by Nov. 2 so I told Corey he should go visit some friends. After making a couple calls, spending a few minutes on the internet and $5.00 later he asked me to take him to the airport Saturday after work.
Saturday I went to lunch & Target with Nikki then after dropping Corey at the airport I went back for a fun night. A few other people came over so we ordered pizza and played beer pong. I brought over the Wii so we played that a little. It was a fun night.

Sunday I cleaned and did almost all the laundry in the house, I had 1 load of towels and 1 load of my own laundry left. My sister came over for a couple hours to sell a table we had of hers, she stayed awhile and we got to chat.

This week has gone by pretty quickly, I can't believe Halloween is this weekend! We still don't have a clue what we are going to do, I'm assuming go to someone's party or something.

Well I really don't feel like writing anymore

Thoughts

I search: within myself to to find strength

I wonder: if I will ever learn to be spontanious

I regret: the way I usually just ignore problems and hope they go away

I love: My family, every single one of them, all for different reasons

I care: too much

I always: try to make the best out of every situation

I worry: that my body will prevent me from the one thing I've looked forward to my whole life

I am not: the pushover I used to be

I remember: things from my childhood that I sometimes still resent my parents for

I believe: that everyone is put here for a reason, and I haven't found mine

I sing: when I'm on an emotional high

I dance: very rarely

I don’t always: feel like I'm doing a good enough job pleasing everyone

I argue: because I have my fathers temper

I write: to let everything out and clear my head

I win: I got the best brother

I lose: because I usually expect to much

I wish: we could move far away

I listen: and try to only give my opnion when asked

I don't understand: why everyone doesn't know "right from wrong"

I can usually be found: At work or at home

I am scared: when I dream about bad things before they happen

I need: my husband everyday

I forget: what it's like to be single and that doesn't bother me one bit

I am happy: 97% of the time

Dad

I learned late last week that my dad is having some more heart problems. He goes in for surgery on Thursday, I have been only able to get minimal information out of him. I'm going to go visit them tonight to see if I can get more info. I know one of the stints that were put in isn't doing it's job so they are going to have to remove and replace it.

I'm glad they were able to catch it before he has another heart attack, but this surgery will delay the surgery he really wants to get which will help with the pain in his legs. There are times when he can't sit or can't stand, just depending on the day it goes either way for him and he wanted that surgery. He was told that couldn't be done until he had been on the blood thinners for a year after his heart-attack and now with this some-what emergency surgery it has been pushed out indefinitely.

With the recent reconnection with my dad's family we've learned that his grandfather and great-grandfather both died in their early 50's of heart attacks. This of course add's to the stress of it all.

I'm taking Friday off of work to be at the hospital with him, he'll be in for atleast 2 days after the surgery.

Survived another birthday week

Corey's birthday has come and gone.

We had a lot of fun Wednesday night at the Jay Z show, there was a red carpet and a bunch of famous people so that was fun to see. Thursday we went to dinner with his family to Outback, YUM. Friday was a benefit concert type of thing in San Pedro, and Saturday was the funnest night of all.
Plans changed last minute because the boys messed everything up. We ended up going to a local BBQ place which was really yummy and worked out way better then Dave & Busters would have. There was a good turn out of 18 people and then after wards we went to the bar. Another 9 people showed up there. I got to catch up with a lot of people which is always fun and it was just nice being out with good friends. Corey can't stop expressing how thankful he is for everything cause he had a very fun birthday week.

Here are some pictures from the celebration with his family

Alyssa opening Corey's gifts

Checking out the cake

Alyssa and me enjoying home made ice cream cake.

Jayden playing

Zoey in Daddy's favorite outfit

Celebrations

A decade ago 10/10/98 Corey and I had our first date at Knott's Scary Farm, Friday 10/10/08 he surprised me by taking me back to the place it all started. It's hard to believe our journey started 10 years ago, we filled the night reminiscing on all the fun we've had over the years and how lucky we are to have found each other so early on in life.

Saturday we celebrated Alyssa's 3rd birthday. She was cute as ever and it was fun to get to see her open all her presents, she still doesn't quite understand what exactly to do and of course wants to play with whatever toy she just opened. It was a fun party and I'd say very successful for Alyssa who got to take home a trunk full of new toys.

I love this picture of Jayden from Alyssa's birthday party

Sunday was Nikki's Champagne Brunch, oh what fun we had. I loved the resturaunt and the food was delicious. The champagne and mimosa's were endless and I must admit I had my share, and also Corey's cause he was driving. It was a beautiful day and the view of Long Beach Harbor was amazing. I hope to visit there again soon.

Nikki & her prego friend Sarah (so sweet)

This was my gift to Nikki - there's a bottle missing out of it but I really liked how it turned out

Pray for Luke Gane

Across the street from my parents live a really great family with 5 boys. Their oldest Luke Gane had a rough couple of months, the last day of July he was diagnosed with aplastic anemia, he has gone thru chemotherapy and he received a bone marrow transplant about a month ago. He's still at CHOC hospital and will hopefully be returning home soon. Though he is feeling much better it's still important happy thoughts and prayers are sent his way.

Please feel free to check out his website and read his story: http://lukegane.blogspot.com/

Zoey to the rescue

I had a migraine this weekend so Zoey stayed by my side and kept my spirits up. It's amazing how intuitive animals can be. She's like our little cheerleader. We're so lucky to have adopted such a little snuggle bug.

By the way, as of yesterday I'm a brunette, back to my roots, literally.

The chaos has begun

The holidays have started. Corey and I went to Macy's Home Store yesterday and they already have fully decorated Christmas trees, the Christmas dishes and decor were out, they even had pretend snow on the ground. While Corey went to the ticketmaster in customer service I stayed and looked at all the beaufitul ornaments and I got an idea.

Usually for Christmas I do gift baskets, a mixture of baked goods and the person's favorite things. I make the baskets all pretty with decorations, ribbons and bows etc. My thought for this year was to give everyone in their basket a great book. I did some looking and it's going to be harder then I thought but well worth it. BUT yesterday at Macy's I kept seeing ornaments that would be perfect for my family. An old woody with a surfboard on top for my dad, a beautiful chandelier looking ornament made with pearls for my mom, a Wedgewood Nativity scene for my grandma. etc etc etc. I've been wanting to get Corey's mom the miniature Wizard of Oz character ornaments so that fits perfectly. My sisters will be easy, Josh might be a little tough and Corey's brother's won't be easy, but friends will be really really fun. I think this will help me get in the Christmas spirit early which I'm really excited about because then the season seems to last longer.

Here's an orament similiar to the one I liked for my dad, but the one in store was much better.

Considering it's only the second day of October I guess I'm getting a little a head of myself. I enjoy Halloween but I LOVE Thanksgiving. Last year we planned on going to Lake Arrowhead for Thanksgiving, my grandma and her sisters and brother had driven up Tuesday and we we're going to leave early Thanksgiving morning for the 2 hour drive. Wednesday around 10 I start getting text messages from my sister saying my dad wasn't feeling well at 10:30 my dad was having a heart attack and I was driving to my moms work to tell her and pick her up. Obviously we didn't make it to Arrowhead, luckily my dad is doing much better now. We had planned to reschedule the trip this year but my dad needs to have more surgery and it'll probably be right before Thanksgiving.

Letting nature take it's course

Corey and I have decided to let nature takes it's course. In other words we're not trying to conceive but we're not NOT trying to conceive either.

With the recent ovary issues we had agreed that we would really start trying about this time next year, but we mutually decided I should stop taking the pill because it seems to be doing more harm then good for my body and it's $50.00 a month. That $$ will go towards paying off some bills which will just make us that much more ready when the time comes.

Everyone keeps asking when we are going to have kids and we usually come back with "eventually" and I think that'll stay the same. We figure the less people that know exactly what's going on the more we can avoid the more prying questions.

I've been doing a lot of research lately about PCOS and it gets scarier and scarier every time a new study comes out. I want to educate myself but it's hard reading those things and realizing some of it applies to me. Notice "some" of it...it's true I'm probably in denial, but I really don't feel like I'm going to have too hard of a time getting pregnant. I have faith and I just have this feeling it'll happen. I read woman's stories about how they've been trying for 8 months, 26 months, 4 years, and I just don't see that being me. There's all these abbreviations and charts that I just don't see myself needing to learn.